I keep feeling like writing on and off lately, but I cannot seem to organize my thoughts. It might help if the ringing in my ear would stop, but then..that is only an excuse for the past week. This has gone on much longer...I've definitely stumbled upon a wall. My way back is blocked by bridges, ropes, and other such things I've burned and/or severed ties with. So my question now is...do I go over the wall before me...or do I go through it?

I'm not who I was...I'm still uncertain if this is a good thing at this point. I've learned so many things as of lately from experience, reading, exploring, and listening. It's not that I shouldn't have already realized many of these things...just that someone had a nice crack with a hammer or a pick of some sort at my skull. It seems the gaping wound there serves more purpose than some sort of pain. It really is a shame when things have to leak in through that rather than my ears, hopefully it'll teach me a lesson.